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Time flies when you're having...fun? It is almost December, I have been home from Europe for 3 months now (the length of my entire trip to Europe), and I am not in South Korea. I chickened out I guess you could say.

I needed a bit of a break before going back to a land where everyone is staring at me confused, not understanding a word coming out of my mouth, how to help me, as I wonder in circles with a map in my hand, just wanting to know where the closest McDonald's is for a free bathroom and wifi. (Yes, that did happen...several times). South Korea will be different though, since I will at least have a home base.

It seems the tension between the Korean borders is getting pretty bad right now, with sinking submarines and bombings on South Korea islands, with people dying, you can bet I am waiting to see if it all dies down before jumping on a plane over there.

In the meantime I am gaining some valuable volunteer experience in various aspects of my future career goal and paying off that thing I like to call the best summer of my life...I also happened to pick up a long distance university course, to prevent my brain from turning into mush, and keep me on track. I hope to have all this done in time for early spring (my new date of departure for Korea!)...that way I can do grad applications while I am away, and not worry I don't have the volunteer experiences etc. Pheww. It all seems to be working out. My mom did say everything happens for a reason, so I guess this delay has a purpose.

I just pray a full blown war doesn't take place. I have fallen in love with Korean culture from afar. When I first decided to put it off, I was relieved (yay no change for a bit), then sad (ummm why I still sitting in my parent's house?), but I have come to realize I have it pretty good.

Talking to some people post-grad makes me see how put together my little plan is. Sure going to Asia for a year seems like I am "running away" but it's relevant to my ultimate career goal, gives me a chance to save money for school and, since I postponed it and got myself put together back home, I can even apply to grad school, fulfill my year contract there, and be back in time to start school. Mhmmm :)

This is such an awkward phase in life. You want to postpone the "real world", yet you want to join it. I don't know what I want, but I do know I only have 2 continents down, and 5 more to go ;)